But, I am sort of getting used to being small. The other day I said to Dave how being a missionary sometimes feels like looking like a fool most of the time. But, when I have been "small", I have watched God at work. We are not here to point others to ourselves, but to God. In my "smallness" bridges have been built because I am not pretending to be something I'm not or pretending to have all the answers, or protecting myself. I am raw, I am bare, and Jesus knows this all too well.
We have been talking about vulnerability in our community here in Zagreb, and last week at our team meeting we talked about how being incarnational means being vulnerable. We also talked about how Paul was vulnerable with his churches. It was not easy; at times he was attacked by false apostles in the churches. He was called weak.
But I'm reminded today of how God's grace is sufficient and sustains us. As Paul says, God's power is made perfect in weakness (2 Corinthians 12:9). Therefore Paul tells us how he boasts about his weaknesses. Often times it is not comfortable to boast about our weaknesses. Some of us are from cultures that want to focus so much on our strengths. We hear that we will be a more fulfilled people if we operate out of our strengths. But watching God work in and through our weaknesses? That's some awesome stuff.